Thanks to a blog I am fighting again.

As strange as it may seem, I was reading a blog when I decided that I wanted to start another cycle of in vitro fertilization. A few months ago I discovered the wonderful world of blogs. After six years of struggle with infertility, three miscarriages, an artificial insemination, in vitro fertilization cycle and a transfer of frozen embryos I had lost all hope. I was exhausted fiscally, mentally and emotionally, not wanting to know anything about doctors, nurses, injections, medications, tests, etc. I had no energy to even think if I wanted to keep fighting or not to have a baby. So I decided to take a vacation from all of this; although my vacation was very brief since I soon found myself surfing the internet looking for, among other things, new clinics specialized in assisted reproduction. It wasn't that I wasn't happy with my previous clinic, in fact I think that my doctor here in Mexico did and is still doing a great job with us. He helped us to find, in part, the cause of our infertility. But my husband and I, after a great deal of talking, decided that we will try to find the most advanced tecnique (or tecnology) to help us to get pregnant and especially to carry term pregnancy, unfortunately this technique isn't available in my clinic or in my the entire country.

So searching online, I not only found this technique, but also a fairly extensive community of women who are searching for results just like me. Searching online I found Polly.
The story of Polly was the one that inspired me and gave me the strength and desire to continue in my fight. I contacted her and she advised and guided me in this new adventure that will be my next cycle of in vitro. Polly is a girl who had been struggling with infertility for 8 years. She had severe problems with the quality of her eggs. She lost 4 babies and had to go through four cycles of in vitro, it wasn't until the fifth attempt that she achieved pregnancy, as you can see my story is a fairy tale compared to hers. The point is that just as Polly's history, I found a dozen other stories, where women worldwide are going to Colorado, which seems to be a Mecca for assisted reproduction clinics and many of these women are finding "the Holy Grail".
So after a long talk, my husband and I decided to try again in the most recognized clinic in US, with the most recognized doctor in the field of assisted reproduction.

For a long time I was thinking of starting my own blog, but I couldn't find the courage to do it. I always thought that you needed to be a brave person to tell your experiences through a blog, you know, having to share to the public your happy moments and your sorrows. Sadly, in a fertility blog you have to talk about your sad moments.

And so far I have had the courage to do so. First, because I feel it is a way to get all my feelings out, and second because I like that this is like my diary, where my experiences are written and where in a future my children (if we finally end up this journey with children), can read the history of as they were created and what their parents had to do to bring them into this world.